Thoughts In My Pur-suit

December 12, 2016


I’ve always hated long bios. Something about proclaiming to be certain things, and to fall under categories even when as empowering as multi-slashes can be these days. That’s the irony of millennials, don’t you think? Breaking free from certain labels not to revolutionize but just to succumb back to a state of what originally was, just exactly opposite. The oxymoron of our generation’s logical perception of what’s quality is rather exaggerated and understated all at the same time.

There are two kinds of bios, the type that doesn't say enough, and the ones that say nothing. In a time and age, when the first couple of questions that follow when you meet someone new is, “what do you do” or “where do you work”, you can already tell what type of profile I prefer when I purposely make myself stupid for replying with, “so, what’s your favorite ice cream flavor?”

These days, you can literally be anything you want to be. Just write that shit out and slap that title across all of your social media platforms' profiles and all of a sudden you’ve gained all the qualifications to call yourself whatever-so.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m all for being confident and self-starting as the next 20-something-year-old. I’d love to call myself a photographer one day, a writer, heck I’d love to be a great cook as well. But, I find that when you have a great passion for something, there’s a certain level of respect for those who are leaders in the industry that you just can’t disregard by shamelessly putting yourself on the same pedestal.

Crowded by a bubble of people who wants to be someone and everyone simultaneously - my irony is, I’d rather be a pursuer.


Typically enough, that’s just as cliche as the next fashion slash photographer slash stylist slash story teller. The reality that I recognize (that I think most people don’t see), is that there is a standard for being qualified that is overlooked when one assumes a certain title for their own. Of course, millennials knows the struggle of what that’s like when interviewing with our seemingly never-good-enough CVs to bosses and corporations that exploit on the idea of super-students. You know, the overachievers that did every extracurriculars and still had straight As. Or even worse, the super-minorities. You know, the really underprivileged that somehow made it.

And if I’m being completely honest, there is no difference between calling myself a singer because I sing (extremely terribly) in the shower than someone with a decent camera and a few thousand followers on Instagram calling themselves a photographer. It’s offensive.

While this sounds like a critical evaluation of my generation of both overqualified and underqualified fellow 20-something-year olds. It's not. See, I feel like this entitlement only exists in places where we are raised to feel like we always need to own something to really have it. The pursuit is no longer about the journey to really emerge and learn and to eventually earn but instead we just take.

With that perception in mind, I just can't help but think that maybe it's not the title that people desire, but rather the idealized recognition of what's associated with occupying a certain job. And you might be thinking, why does that matter, and why am I so frustrated with this. Well, it's because I'm a little bit territorial. It's a part of valuing something so dearly and watch it lose its quality. Kind of like watching a brand you love (Acne Studios) being discredited for so many other great things, and known only for what's arbitrarily insignificant (ahem, pink shopping bags and wool scarves that are bought for the prior mentioned reason). It's interesting, right? To want to be different and to be unique but still, be associated with this sense of perceived 'coolness' that everyone seems to think they are these days.




Scarf: Acne Studios (on sale!)
Dress: Aritzia
Shoes: Sacai (similar, Balenciaga and Isabel Marant)
Jacket: Mango
Bag: Proenza Schouler PS11

Photos by Lina D
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Directional

January 18, 2016


Where you are going and where you are headed are in a way two different type of questions. The direction in which our lives move is, in a sense, unpredictable and uncontrollable. One day we’re king of the world, and the next day we back to the bottom. All we have is this hope in the idea of serendipity that we comfort ourselves with -- that everything happens for a reason, and for the better.

Sometimes in our lives, we find ourselves pushing to go some place, thinking we’re headed somewhere but, that’s the thing with life, our thoughts often don’t guarantee us where we want to be. We just have to make the best of where we are and where we find ourselves, at all times.

Of all the places to shoot in this magical and highly envied city called New York, I don’t know why I always end up in alleys, construction areas, abandoned ATM corners - and now between scaffolding brackets. I guess something about the unfinished and unclaimed places where most people’s eyes get sore, appeal most to me.

So here I am, in my princess pink shoes, climbing these wall brackets in a pair of pants that disgusts my mother and a structured coat that I button to hide these ripped holes from her before I leave the house.

I’m pretty weird this way, and it’s hilarious to think that some people think I take myself seriously.


Coat: Aritzia (similar here and here) previously worn here
Top: Banana Republic
Pants: Zara
Shoes: Miu Miu Pink Velvet Slip On also worn here.
Bag: Proenza Schouler PS11

Photos by Shun S.
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Over The Knee, Over My Head

November 4, 2015

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I went through a period of my life when sneakers, jeans and an oversized shirt or sweater would do. But this was way back in middle/high school, when my parents could barely afford rent each month. As a little girl who grew up wearing a different dress everyday before I moved to the States, this American Dream uniform didn’t really bother me since it was something different than I was used to.

The idea of wearing over the knee boots then would have been thrown completely over my head. Before these thigh high and over the knee boots were introduced, the to-go was ankle boots and knee high socks instead.

Maybe it’s because we’re all basically running out of ideas or getting lazier over the years - knee high boots seemed like they would be a more efficient replacement for the two steps process of wearing ankle boots with knee high socks. In reality though, it takes me about 20 more minutes to put on most over the knee boots as it take to do it the older, cheaper way.

Even so, being a part of this over-spoiled generation, I too, ditched the knee high socks with ankle boots thing, and acquainted myself with the update.


Jacket: Theory
Top: Aritzia
Shorts: Zara
Shoes: Aldo 'Olilassa'
Bag: Proenza Schouler PS1

Photos by Shun S.
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Corporately

October 26, 2015


In fashion, there’s no such thing as a 9-5. Crazy to think that I had no clue what I would be doing a few months ago, and in a blink of an eye, it’s already been a month since I started working full-time.

Working in fashion has always been a goal of mine, and maybe that’s why the time has been flying by so fast. The saying goes “dress for the job you want, not for the job you have” and I get to want to dress for the job I have every day.

When it comes to goals and dreams, there is a huge difference that I don’t think many people realize. For many, fashion blogging is an easy way for them to get out of doing something that they aren’t fully passionate about, but for me, it was a way to get my foot in the fashion industry.

These days it seems as if it’s common to have a fashion blog. To want to make it as a fashion blogger. But for what?

Too many times I come across someone who claims that they are passionate about fashion, but their goals are only to get free things, wear nice clothes, and experience all of the glitz and glamours that the fashion industry has to offer. It’s not to say that this is not deserved and rewarded through remarkable work and efforts - but I just wish that the goals aren’t mistaken as a dream.

Too many times I hear people claim that fashion is their dream, but a dream without vision is just a goal. Fashion is a form of art. And with every form of creative expression, something great can be achieved.

More than starting a clothing line and/or carelessly promoting random brands for the sake of association and leveraging one’s perceived level of influence - I hope that these so-called passionate fashion influencers can dream bigger than the obvious; to do something more than just “inspire.”

Coat: Aritzia
Dress: Thakoon Addition Tie Front Shirt Dress
Shoes: Acne Studios Jensen Boots
Bag: Proenza Schouler PS11

Photos by Shun S.

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Perfect

October 19, 2015

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The perfect picture is often candid, never posed. The perfect home is always perceived. The perfect couple have their struggles, too. The most perfect things are often flawed. And isn’t it shallow to think that anything is ever flawless?

If being perfect was an option, I’d rather choose to be just close to it.

Perfect is momentarily, and the pursuit is what is constant. People use the word perfect to describe anything and everything that pleases their eyes, calms their souls, and soothes their senses temporarily. In the world of the creatives, perfect is generic. Perfect leaves no room for critiques and therefore any improvements.

So, why is it that we care so much about how great, or perfect different aspects of our lives look to other people? Especially on social media.

Instead of perfect, how about we try just being authentic.


Sweater: Zara (old, similar here, and here)
Skirt: Aritzia (similar here)
Shoes: Schutz
Bag: Proenza Schouler PS1

Photos by Sandra L.
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Look Back

September 7, 2015


For many people, when asked about someone else's standout features, they often respond with body parts such as eyes, lips, collarbones, or jawlines - which are all features that I find particularly attractive too; however, one of my favorite body parts is the back.

To me, the back is an extremely beautiful body part that many people tend to overlook.

The back is responsible for your posture, and it reveals so much about you - which I find so intimate. It reveals how vulnerable you are when you’re all curled up and your spine is visible. It screams how proud you are when it’s tightened and straight. And how it curves to envelope another person when you give them an authentic hug.

A bare back is also a part that can be extremely alluring, mostly because it’s a body part that’s least unexpected to be sexy. The way I see it, a bare back is not only more beautiful, but powerful than any cleavage or any other types of societal claimed standards of beauty traits.

It is because of this that backless shirts and dresses will always make a louder statement to me than those with a deep plunge neckline.

Top: Asos (sold out, but other options here and here)
Pants: AGOLDE
Shoes: 10 Crosby Derek Lam
Bag: Proenza Schouler PS11


Photos by Shun S.
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NYC Hustle

June 30, 2015

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In New York, everyone is always in a rush. Some even feel the need to be in a rush. Aside from always rushing because I'm already late, I prefer to take my time. People in New York are always rushing to make the train, a meeting, and even for the exits. Maybe it's to keep up with their physical pace, but I've noticed many of them rush to pursue their goals and dreams too.

There's this mentality of the hustle here that is both admiring and scary at the same time. We're living in a period of time where 60 year olds are eager to going back to school, yet there are 20 some-things racing to be the richest person on Earth or first person to (fill in the blank) --ready to stop living before they even live. What's the rush?

As I get older and the more people I meet here, I start to understand why a lot of people actually have a hard time finding love in this city that never sleeps, quite ironically. You see, New York is great and all, but somehow for me, there's something that's missing. If you're lucky enough to live in a place where your neighbor says good morning to you as you walk out for work, then make sure you never move.

I guess it's because each and everyone is so on guard, so driven, and so eager to reach their own personal goals and dreams here that they tend to close themselves off from any sort of distractions, including investing in genuine relationships. While that determination is something to praise, I just can't help but always wonder "is it necessary?"

This city keeps me on my toes for the next best person I will meet, and sometimes, worst. It's amazing to think, what's so enticing about this city that we would give it all up for the sake of pursuing of our dreams/goals?

I want to live in a place where goals are simple. Dreams aren't fulfilled by how much your salary is or what position you occupy in your company. I wish I could prove that happiness is sacred and it's still the greatest success anyone can ever achieve. But I don't think I can ever prove that by living in New York...

At the same time, I love this city to death, and I don't know where else I'd go to nest, even if I wanted to get out. And that's how New York gets you. Those lights will surely change you. And you'll always be too busy, working, rushing, and chasing to even think about what will happen to you if you weren't here.
Top: Zara (similar here), Banana Republic (on sale!)
Pants: Brandy Melvile (similar here)
Shoes: Nicholas Kirkwood
Bag: 3.1 Phillip Lim
Accessories: Vintage Rings
Photos by Shun S. & Sandra L.
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Classic

May 7, 2015

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Top: Alexander Wang
Pants: J Brand Jeans, Beyond
Shoes: Zara (old, similar here & here)
Bag: Topshop
Accessories: Jennifer Zeuner and Vanessa Mooney

Photos by Shun S.

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